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Updates

Yeah, had not been updating myself since my 1st day of work... Well well, here are some updates... hee....

Finally placed myself into somewhere in the project.. Went thru a small meeting wif my 师夫 underwent indepth study of the system which i m going to take over from her after she leaves next mth.. Her last day is on the 21st next mth... And hopefully, i m able to ABSORB whatever i need from her within this one whole mth bah....

She is nice and she promised to fill mi in with watever she knws without leaving mi in suspension after she left... And i m glad that i m in, working here.....

STRESS!!!!

First day of work.. and arnd the end of the day.. i start to feel the pressure and stress which i m going to go thru during my stay here...

Reason:
I am worried that i can't performed!!

As i mentioned before, i donno anything abt Javascripting.. And today after first view of the system coding and connectivity of such.. I start to feel the pressure...

Not bcoz i donno how to do coding of Lotus Language.. Of coz, i knw Lotus... But now the thing which i am not familiar is Javascripting and oso connectivity of Notes to another external System using ODBC connectivity...

Had hands on before once which was realli a few years back and connection wise coding using LotusScript i never do before!!

Viewed the codes this afternoon and I was dumbfounded!! Damn... the connectivity codes looks chim but somehow 勉强 still can understand but the Javascripts realli look damn ALIEN to mi!! I am realli worried, beri worried that i can't performed in this job...

Holidays Over

Went for interview juz now in the evening.. and "sad" to say.... I am starting work tmr!!!! 6mths contract again... Quite sian actually, but well.. i guess is the fate that brought mi back to this company and got the job to start working with the company from tmr onwards.....

Rem i blogged abt going for interview a few wks back and din get the job??? i think shld b early of this mth... Today i went back to the same place and met another person for interview... And this person, without interviewing me, actually told mi what he is expecting from mi on his project and after i give him a positive answer.. he made mi the offer on the spot!!

Kaoz! I was actually reluctant to accept as i had an interview tmr afternoon and is a perm position for a local BIG firm @ Chai Chee... Perm as compared to contract.. Of coz Perm is better... But Local firm compared to MNC... of coz MNC is better in terms of learning curve and opportunites....

I had actually requested to give him an answer tmr after my interview.. But he was reluctant to accept my proposal as he was going overseas on fri morning.. and he told mi, if i don accept now.. There might not be a 2nd chance for mi to come into this company (a company comparable to IBM)....

He told mi there is no reason why i don accept the job coz he is making mi a good offer and giving mi opportunities to enter the company and learn more new things... And that includes Project Mgmt, Javascripting, Java etc on Notes... Making it so attractive, I don see any reason why i want to reject the offer.. And best of all, i will be working on Site and his site is chaired by LKY, Tony Tan, LHL those BIG BIG people.....

Actually he told mi that my resume is not beri attractive in the first place.. and this might be the reason why my previous interview did not go through successfully.. (i guess he is more senior than the previous interviewer who interviewed mi @ the beginning of the mth).... And he had promised to let mi learn more new things and beautify my resume for next job hunt....

As it is a company comparable to IBM, he guaranteed mi that if he wasn't able to keep mi more than 6mths... I will have MUCH MUCH more opportunities outside during job hunting... And this is one of the reason why i decided to give up the perm and accept this offer.... The perm is not beri bad.. but company wise, this company is much better than the perm company.... Sigh!!

Am i stupid???

eh... for this i seriously donno.. But I don't want to miss such a golden opportunity to enter this company and learn JavaScripting where for sure, next round i would guarantee to get a job faster and easier... And mayb who knws, i might stay here for good???

Lobangs

Woke up early this morning despite the cool weather as I had an interview this morning with an IBMer... Temp Contract for 2 mths stretching btw Jan - Feb 2006....

Shld i take??? Logically, I shld not take as it is juz a 2 mths contract and no guarantee a renewal / extension / conversion as it is juz for a project UAT phase... Benefits, it is IBM leh!!! IBM!!! and i got chance to learn Domino.doc which i am suppose to learn few years back when still working in tampines...

That guy had decided to take mi in.. as long as i agreed to commit for 2 mths...

But i cannot guarantee a commitment as currently i m looking for a better job... I had informed that guy abt my intention and he was kinda disappointed as he wanted mi to join him juz bcoz the other applicants are all ah neis... and he dislikes ah neis!! Ooops.........

Of coz i would beri much like to join IBM.. but come to think of it.. is juz a 2 mths contract and no guarantee after that.. If i decided to join, i had to give up my job hunt for the time being and meaning the whole of next mth is Holiday for mi..... with no Income!!

Well well... Had asked the guy to give mi time to give him a reply by next Wed... Bcoz later i had an interview and tmr i had another 2 interviews.... And this is why i don wish to commit as yet coz i donno the outcome of the interviews will be like... If i managed to get the perm job for the tmr's interview, who would want to do 2 mths contract?? The other 2 interviews are contract position for 6mths... (Sian right?? I oso sian... )

Sigh... I think all these are fated... Whether i will join IBM in the end or not.. realli depends on my fate with them bah....

IBM!!!

Bad News

Met up Ros and her gang last nite for supper and got to learn from her tat my driving instructor passed away oredi... Seriously got a shocked when hearing this...

Her sis-in-law was learning driving from my ex-instructor as Ros asked mi to intro her my instructor to her sis-in-law previously when still working in my ex-coy.. Heard from her tat it had been quite sometime and he died because of heart attack..

Saw him gobbling lots of pills previously while learning driving from him and he was @ the most 60plus... Not too old for his age but it was still a shocking and bad news for mi... Anyway, hope that he will rest in peace...................

Certification

Hehee.. Finally made an effort to book my first paper next fri... Had finished studying the reviewer which my ex-coll had passed to mi previously, and well well... Kinda stressed as I picked the wrong answers quite frequently a few times for some questions...

Guess have to study extra hard to pass.. mayb realli memorise the whole of Notes Help bah... Kekekee... But i think i not so motivated...

Had been playing Maple Story since last sat.. Hahhaaaa.. Kinda addicted @ times.. But i want to control my mood coz i want to clear my 1st paper!! Jia YOU!!

Sigh..

Ok.. i din manage to get both jobs...

Tired..

Went thru 2 interviews today.. So damn tired.. and kinda stressed!!

One was near Changi Cargo complex... SUPER INCONVENIENT LOR!! Actually i got a direct bus from my hse to the place.. But bcoz it was in Cargo complex.. Visitors needed pass to enter the place in order to board the bus... Kinda stupid!!! Bcoz i knew how to walk to the bus stop from the place i went interview... I supposely walked towards it thinking of catching a bus from there to come back home... (it was realli a long walk from that company to the bus stop)

Juz before reaching.. i guess was abt a bus stop distance away... I realli could see the bus lor.... But, i was being blocked from entering the place towards the bus stop....
The security guard told me i needed a pass to enter the place in order to board the bus, and obviously i don't have the pass lor... Hence, i was being "chased" away by the security guard.. She asked mi to walk back to where i came from to take a shuttle to Changi Village and catch the SAME bus home!!! See properly... SAME bus OK!! Realli could understand the feeling of SO NEAR, YET SO FAR!!

Reluctantly, i left the Cargo Complex and walked backwards towards where i came from... Luckily, i met one uncle driving a Cargo complex carrier.. He offered to drive mi back to where i came from to catch the shuttle bus... And so, i hopped onto his carrier and he sent mi back to the bus stop to wait for the shuttle service...

Was kinda stupid and dumb.... SO NEAR, YET SO FAR!! Realli kinda spoilt my whole morning by walking that distance!!

Anyway, guess i don't go back to that place again.. Coz is realli too inconvenient for mi.. even there is a shuttle during peak hours to pick pple in and out...

Juz got back from my second interview.. Distance was ok.. but kinda dumb again... Upon reaching the busstop.. I need to walk another long distance towards the main gate in order to enter the company...

Damn... Today realli "exercise" alot ah!! Both mentally and physically stressed out...

Belated..

Mom and Dad bgt mi another cake today.. my favorite, Chocolate cake!! Kekekee..

This morning when we were abt to leave our house, dad suddenly mentioned to mom abt my birthday.. Mom then realised that my ang moh and lunar birthday had just passed quietly the day before and yesterday...

During to be naughty, i asked mom how come this year she never buy mi a cake (mom bgt mi a cake last year if you read my blog entry last year on the same day)... Mom then said, "Ok lah.. I will get you a cake tonite to celebrate ur belated birthday!!".. I said i want Chocolate one.. she said "ON ah"!! Heehehee...

And true enough, i got a Chocolate tonight, 2 red eggs and a bowl of 汤圆.. for my birthday.. (i don like to eat 面线).. Hence every year, mom will prepare 汤圆 for me..

And furthermore, today is my last day with my current company cum my sis-in-law birthday... (Happy birthday, 大嫂)

Went office in top and jeans.. Heheee... Normally i realli bo chap when last day 1... Reached office @ 9plus and being called to do UAT demo for the whole morning... Afternoon spent the rest of the afternoon setup UAT environment and writing emails to say my last words for them to do followup on my applications... Still alot of things to be changed but..................... the one who is doing is NOT ME!!! Hahahhahaah... Good luck my successor!!

Boss still trying to ask mi to change my mind this afternoon during lunch time... She realli was damn persistant, even up to the last min... But well, all i can say was "Sorry boss"... I had decided not to stay there.. hence, i will never regret my decision since the day i tendered...

Tomorrow onwards, will be a brand new beginning for mi... Hope my job search will be a success and all the best to me!!

How I spent the day?

Spent the whole of yesterday and today idling @ home.. Boring birthday right? hehehe... Well, it is actually nice to spend ur time @ home though..

Came back from the chalet @ 4plus am.. If u noticed, u shld be able to see that my previous post was done @ 5plus am.. Kekekee!! Yeah, i posted it before i crawled into bed.. When i woke up from sleep, My GOD!! Is oredi 3.20pm.. First time slept until so late mann... Spent the rest of the day @ home and today as usual woke up @ 7plus am for my aqua class...

Got back home @ 12noon plus.. then went to print transcripts @ 4plus pm for my tuesday interviews... Hopefully can get the one in Tamp.. As is realli near my place... May luck be with me!! Cheers....

It's here again...

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to ME!!

Yah.. One year older once more..

The cake that Ros bought for mi..

Went to one of my fren's chalet last nite @ Changi and she was so nice.. As to got me a cake specially for my DAY.. Is a tiramisu cake from Four Leaves and she said she spent 30bucks juz for the cake..

Kinda paiseh as it was her chalet and end up she and her frens (which i donno) celebrate my birthday for mi... Thanks Ros, if you are reading this!!

Before this I was @ my company B&D (bowling & dinner) - sounds kinda stupid right?? First time heard of B&D... Actually i got no intention of going to the so called B&D one.. My colls they all urged mi to go with them to gather arnd and have fun as I m leaving next monday.. my boss oso "ORDERED" mi to go on her behalf as she cannot make it after paying for the event... (staffs were expected to pay 10bucks each for the event, higher for managerial level)

Since so many pple urged mi to go, so 舍命陪君子 lor.. what's the big deal?? Anyway, after next Monday i will be leaving that idiotic & sickening company for good...

Expected

Login to Yahoo messenger this morning and my ex-coll msg mi telling mi what happened after she tok to boss yesterday evening... As expected, my hope of going back had been squashed totally and flatly when she told mi that boss actually offered her perm position in order to keep her...

Why is it that it happened to everyone except mi??
Previously when I got a job offer and tok to boss, his msg to mi was that he got no intention to convert mi as yet as there was no project... He asked mi to start looking arnd and not to pin hope in staying there... My ex-coll oso told mi that boss told her currently there wasn't any project as yet but bcoz the internal users got used to hv her arnd, he intend to convert her...

Why am i so unlucky?? Am i realli not fated with NCS?? If so, why was I given a chance to go in where it was just a dream afterall?? To be frank, i am realli feeling beri sad abt all this issue... My heart is crying!!

Big Turn in Events

Juz came back from hospital after visited one of my fren who is in TTSH now.. He broke his arm two days ago and got hospitalised the very day... Juz had his operation today in the evening when we visited him and poor him was groaning in pain after the anesthetic.. Don't know how to lessen his pain juz kept him company for the past 2 hrs with my other friends... Hope that he will recover soon as he is going to have his exams soon mayb next week...

Sigh.. How he fell was bcoz he was chasing after a bus @ the bus stop heading for home after work... Simply donno how he managed to fall until so serious.. He told us that he was bleeding profusely that day when he was admitted @ TTSH and the stupid doctors juz don't want to attend to him juz bcoz he choose to stay in the B2 ward bcoz of his medical policy which only allow him to stay in either B2 or C if he want to get subsidization during his stay in hospital... Poor him waited for the doctors to attend to him for 3 solid hrs while his poor arm and leg was bleeding non-stop (almost bleed until dry up)... He told us alot of stupid things that happened in the hospital for the past few days which he had encountered... One word to describe all... The service SUCKS when u choose to stay in those non air-con wards... Can u imagine, u had to realli endure that kinda pain when u realli was in deep pain and no one is there to help?? Can you imagine the agony?? His word of advice to us, to review our medical policy before anything happens...

Other than this fren of mine.. Another turn of event happened in my ex-company... Yah.. NCS... One of my ex-coll told mi that she got a better offer and wanted to tender her resignation with the company.. She intend to get boss to get mi back... Possibility of success, i think is arnd 10%... Beri low indeed! Why i feel so is bcoz another helper is coming back to office in dec and i don't think they need the third person if there isn't any BIG project on hand...

To be frank, i was realli happy and jumping for joy when she told mi of her plan.. but on second thought, the percentage of success is realli low juz of that reason... Guess, I don't want to pin too much hope in this event as it might be a BIG disappointment in the beri end.... Well, see how things go bah...

Thirdly, my boss is currently having headache with her ah de nei... Realli donno want to pity her or laugh @ her... As I said early, i knew this ah nei in NCS and know her working style... Know that she loves to take MC, know that she loves to MIA without notification... But since I m leaving, I don't see any point in sabo-ing her when she came in for interview the other day... Boss chose to get her in... The only thing i can say to boss is "WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!!"

Ah nei played MIA this morning again.. Thought she went meeting wif boss @ TTSH.. But when users tried calling her today @ my phone number and couldn't get her.. They complaint to my boss and boss called mi to ask abt her... Then i realised she went MIA again without notification.. Boss said that she is having a big headache with this ah nei.. Ah nei actually asked to leave @ 4pm yesterday, but was rejected by my boss as boss expected her to attend my demo yesterday afternoon...

I wrote yesterday that ah nei told mi that she wanted to quit.. I thot she realli GONE FOR GOOD and never coming back... But luckily she got come to work today lah.. Same excuse.. SICK! Crap lah... So easy sick?? If one day she realli GONE for GOOD..... I donno how my boss will die mann.... like i said, the only sentence I can say now to Boss is "WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!!"

死 ah nei

Hahahaa... Must be wondering why I put this subject title right?? Well well, let me explain...

Actually had a meeting with one of the TTSH users on one of the reporting functions for one system which I was previously supporting before ah nei joined... The requirements of the report is such that they want numeric figures to be generated into a barchart in MS Excel using lotus notes...

During the meeting, I had told the user that this could be done as I did this before previously in my ex-coy... As such, it is a promise made to the user that this report will be delivered to them sometime in dec or early next year... As I am leaving next Monday, my boss actually passed this requirement to ah nei this afternoon... I was somehow being involved in their discussion...

Upon hearing the requirement from my boss, ah nei asked me in my boss presence:

Ah nei: Can be done meh??
Me: Yes.. Coz I did it before, hence I know can be done...
Ah nei: Where you did it before??
Me: in NCS lor... (both of us were in NCS previously...)
Ah nei: (Looking surprised) Which application ar??
Me: PA e-Survey lor... Eh, don't ask mi for the codes, the codes are in the application which I developed for PA in NCS...
Boss: Oh... PA got alot of figuring things.. No wonder they need the barchart...
Me: (Smiling.. Jokingly toking to my boss) If she donno how to do it, you can sub the requirement for mi.. and i do for u lor...
Ah nei: No lah.. don't need lah.. I know how to do it!.. I can do it better than you!
Me: Ok lor.. then you do it.. Make sure you don't ask me hor...

From our conversation, I know that she don't know how to do it lah.. She realli can boost leh.. If she know how to do it, then why in the first place, she ask me can do meh?? Hahahhaaa.. She is realli slapping her own face mann without realising she had slapped herself!! Kekekeee...

Went for my demo shortly after our conversation.. Ah nei was being asked to join in our demo session as she will be taking over the new system from mi from next week onwards... After our demo and back @ my place.. Ah nei suddenly told mi that she want to resign... Damn! 2 weeks only leh.. and she told mi that she want to resign?? She must be feeling damn stressed already since I had almost dump everything I had to her... Hahahhaaha.... Well well, how seriously she is, i donno.... But I wish her all the best from next tuesday onwards... Kekekkeee!!

I'm mad..

WAH!! I cleared Stage 2 with 10 acts yesterday and completed Stage 2 and Stage 3 today... SO DAMN TIRING mann!!

Yah yah.. I am mad... Well, don think I realli sit in front of the pc whole day to watch the anime hor... I do walk arnd ok!! Hahahaaa... Went for my usual Sunday class this morning will a bit of drizzle and today's weather was so cool and the water wasn't too cold either... So nice... Heheee..

Came back from class and went for my haircut... And shit! The hairstylist which I m waiting for was not there again... Suppose to cut my hair last week when i went there, but only 1 female hairstylist was there and news from my aunties was that only the boss of the shop do nice haircuts... And hence, I m hoping for the boss to do for mi...

Missed it last week when I had finished with my treatment and fringe trimming and when i was abt to pay for the session, the boss juz entered the shop... So mad leh... Can u imagine?? Actually the female hairstylist asked mi twice whether I want to cut my hair.. Both times i replied "NO".. Coz i was worried that she will messed up my hair... And since I said "NO"... Is quite hard for mi to say i want to cut when I m paying up right? And so, i juz left the shop with disappointment...

Today cannot stand my long and thick hair any longer.. Hence, went back to the same shop to try my luck.. and again, the boss isn't there!! And again.. I kena the female hairstylist again!! SO FATED mann.... Looks like i can't run away from her... Hence, juz let her do my hair lor.. what to do???

But but... Hehehe.. Well well, although the results of her hairdo isn't as great as my former hairstylist (she resigned already), but still consider not bad lah... not as bad as what my aunties they all told mi lah... Still look presentable and I find it quite ok... heheee...

Finally got rid of my thick long hair... So happy!!

Initial D - Stage 1

Hahahaa... Incredible ah!! Juz 2 days, and I am down with Stage 1... This is realli the fastest speed I got for watching anime leh... Kekekee!!

Well well, zeph and apc are right.. Initial D is realli a much much better show as compared to Goddess.. But.. I still like Belldandy though.... Hehehee....

It is realli a blessing a disguise that I did not delete the whole folder previously.. if not i would have missed such a great anime... It is also bcoz i m getting bored for having nothing to do recently.. which on the other hand nudged mi in starting to watch the anime.. and i admit i m HOOKED!! Kekekee!!

Today is grandma's birthday again... Going over to her place in the afternoon and another feast is coming along again... Yippee!!

Feeling down...

Met up my ex-colls for dinner tonite @ Serangoon Garden Jumbo... Got a sumptuous dinner, until now my tummy is still bloated ah... Guess tonite hv to dawn for quite a while before crawling into bed... Kekekee!!

Well well... Other than tonite's dinner.. There isn't nothing fun or exciting this week.. Or rather, there are ONLY pissful things happening around in office again, which is realli a norm... Shit, 6 more working days to go before "graduation"!!

Doesn't look happy today.. Or rather moody.. Few ex-colls asked mi during dinner juz now... Actually, don't have to say.. can guess is bcoz of work again.. Sigh! Juz endure another 6 more working days bah... and all these complains will be buried into the ground forever!!

Eversince ah nei knew of mi going for interview on Monday, she had been asking mi whether I found a job or not... Yah, since monday she had been asking mi the same question over and over again, and my reply is the same for the past 3 working days... realli cannot stand her mann... whether I manage to find a job or not doesn't realli concern her what.?? Why must she keep asking?? Shot her back this evening that I intend to take my own sweet time to look for a good one.. Hopefully, next week onwards, she will not ask mi again... And she can be quite sticky.. everything have to ask... why can't she find answers herself?? Buey tahan...

Ok lah ok lah... Guess I will juz stop here for tonite.. else, for sure i will blurt out all the unhappiness here again...

Disappointed

Went interview yesterday evening.. Yah, can see from my entry title... Disappointed!! So, you can almost guess the end results..

Reached there early and filled up the job application form as usual and my interviewer came in and asked mi lots and lots of questions... Well, felt that he realli made mi lost a lot of saliva mannn!! Not that I donno how to answer the questions and not that I donno how to present myself....

The problem is....
1. He is looking for someone who knws javascript.. (I donno)
2. Is a contract position and max duration is only ... 6mths!!

Yesh! 6mths... Damn sian upon hearing this... Lost the interest totally...
Well well... Guess I will juz wait for a slightly better one bah...

I had told myself.. Unless is a minimum 1year contract, else I am not taking it up anymore... Fyi, my resume looks kinda long oredi.. and doesn't reflect too nice if have so many job switching around...

I know my chance will be here.. And i guess it won't be too long a wait... Wish me luck!!